Why do I still think of you???

                                     Why do I still think of you???    

Life is such a beautiful and exciting thing that never tells you what's in store for you for tomorrow and the fact that it keeps you waiting makes it all the more exciting!
It throws some random moments, hides behind a wall and sees if you can transform those moments into memories and on few other occasions, it takes you blindfolded and you open your eyes only to find yourself in the company of someone new and yet again, you find it nowhere in the picture as it finds itself a hiding place and all it does is see if that someone new can turn out to be someone "Special"!

                              All these happen amidst the stereotypical and hectic life that we go through.Turn a blind eye to these moments and you will miss some of the potentially beautiful memories. As I was riding on the roller coaster called life, you appeared in my visible region one day and I paid no attention to you not knowing the fact that you would mean so much to me this day.Time melted off gradually and without even giving a hint, you caught my attention and I realised that you are no longer just another person.The foundation for the building called liking was laid then and there. A new  activity of stealing a couple of looks at you and praising your beauty thereafter became a part of my routine.Some part of my time used to skid off with me wondering about how a human can be so beautiful and some other part of it would keep me occupied dreaming of the day when I would strike a conversation with you.It was only later that I realised that it would take so long for us to break the ice between us.

                           As I struggled to find a way of going past the barrier called shyness,I still used to let my eyes have the pleasure of seeing you.But long before I could feel contented about enjoying seeing your beauty,your eyes used to meet mine even before we met and embarrassment used to leave me kicking myself for getting caught staring at you.My eyes would, then, look elsewhere only for few moments ,though, as keeping them away from your magnet like beauty seemed next only to impossible.Hearing a few words spoken by you used to ring the bells of excitement and they used to reiterate in my ears for long.Every little thing you did used to win my attention and at the end of the day, thoughts of you would make me slide into sleep and I used to enter the land of dreams where I used to enjoy spending time with you and used to cherish every little thing that we did together.
               
                             It took long for me to realise, one day, that you were actually talking to me in reality.I couldn't believe what was happening but neither was I too idiotic to let this moment fade away.What followed thereafter were endless conversations and memories that are too good to fade.
                                           
                                                 My liking towards you increased with each day passing by but then I am not too blind to overlook my principles of not being in a relationship at this stage.So, no matter how much I like you, I know I am not going to be in a relationship with you.But, one question still remains unanswered:

                  Why do I still think of you?

                                                                    -Satya Srinivas J